​Kimiko Kawamura

a large crowd of school children all wearing deep red gym uniforms are marching to the same direction on what it looks like a bridge. I watch them march while I cannot join them because I'm wearing a different hat to everybody else's. Soon the crowd starts performing a tribal dance which I cannot identify the origin of.

there is an army of Bonnie Taylor dolls. white blonde hair, pale pink dress with red ribbon around waist. they look like claydough dolls on christmas cakes. the ribbons are being placed one by one which look like soft shiny toffee. celebration of some sort?

i hop around to avoid being hit by the light beams. it is very difficult not to be hit at all because some of them don't travel straight and they come one after another. The light is potent of decaying my body. 光の線に射られるのを避ける夢。時々光が屈折するからなかなかよけきれない。この光に当たると肉体が朽ちてしまう。

an unexpected bombing on Tokyo including nuclear bomb. a crowd of people try to escape in panic. i raise a frying pan to deflect off the light from nuclear bomb explosion. there is a child who was also exposed to radiation. i contemplate on how to protect his life. i cannot comprehend how developed countries like ours end up engaging in a war. 東京が奇襲攻撃を受け原爆が落とされるとんでもない夢。とっさにフライパンを掲げて爆発の光線を避けようとする。小さな男の子も被曝している。どうやって子供の命を守れるのか考えあぐねる。今更

the lightnings in all sorts of colors above the sky of a city (Sydney or Tokyo?). due to this storm, the screening gets cancelled. there is a library/atelier upstairs of the house. the clock indicates 7:58am and i feel that i have to go to uni. continues.. 街の上空をいろんな色の雷がひっきりなしに光っている。嵐のため上映会は中止。家の二階部分に書斎兼アトリエ。続く。

A large aeroplane crushes into a buit-up town with many buildings. My mother and I run to the site, hoping to help someone. but need to cover our airways with a piece of cloth because the air is contaminated. (continues) どこかビルの立ち並ぶ都市に飛行機墜落。母と私は呼吸器を布で覆いながら（空気が汚染されている）現場に駆けつける。

There are bunch of burnt and injured people on the stretchers, amonst them, there is a tiny fetus breathing faintly but is trying so hard to live. A rescue man wipes him/her off the streacher and says 'he won't make it anyway'. A cruel dream. 　火傷を負ったたくさんの負傷者が担架に乗せられている中、まだ生まれてはいけないような赤ちゃんがいる。虫の息ながら一生懸命生きようとしている。どうせ助からないからと救助隊員らしき人がその赤ちゃんを払いのける。きつい夢だった。

kittens born in spider nest one after another in gutter

my brother holds my hand and sings for me who was sad for some reason. such caring, loving and affirming voice, lyric (although I'm not sure what language it was), feeling

i hanged out with my brother. i was really happy to be able to spend quite some time holding his hands gently and firmly

a lucid dream. as soon as i realize that i was dreaming and attempted to look at the faces of those around me, they all shut up suddenly and their faces turn dark

wetting the shower door

a dream of another world 2014

on a voyage on a metal ship with my grandfather. He lists up the names of our destinations islands. "C-r-e-.. island" "the island of Joy" ... as I think that I'll forget these names (as I know I'm dreaming), I write them on my arm with my finger nail.as I woke up, I searched for these islands and I found a piece of music by Debussy "L'Isle joyeuse (the joyful island)" which was made after Kythira island in Greece, which is situated north west of Crete island.

On my bed. The force rolls me over onto my back, I fall off from the edge of bed into the abyss. I surrender to the powerful current which soon develop into the feeling of euphoria. There is an entity - masculine and enchanting. I open my eyes but there is no visible body but only the presence. He falters because I am conscious to his surprise.The invisible entity starts sucking my blood or energy. I tell him off by saying "you are making me lose my blood!"

a hidden room

I was afloat somewhere 100s km above Eurasia. Earlier I took a trip to west by bus and decided to go home flying but got lost and ended up there. The below, in the midst of Eurasia was covered by dense green forest. There were several people around me that I didn't know who, they were also lost and looking for their ways home. We sited ourselves using GPS on my smartphone.

I have a lover in my dream realm who pays a visit from time to time.The contact with him is rather sensual but in innocent ways and it is comforting and I feel as if I recovered my lost pieces as we unite.The image is a metaphoric drawing of offering the femininity.

2000

a dream of sound only. two women chanting together, one young woman and one older woman, beautiful vocal resonating somewhere in a sacred space with atmospheric sound gently vibrating in low-ish key. i could clearly hear each word sung but i didn't know what they meant nor identify what language it was. i felt it was either an ancient language that is no longer spoken or maybe extraterrestrial.

2001

2000

2000

an old woman in veil encouraged me to intake a potion and led me into a dark room through a door which is a thin veil. as i stepped inside, extremely bright orange and grey light projected on the wall and i became light-headed.

in the next moment, someone grabbed my hands in the dark and i instantly felt that i could trust the owner of the hand and where it would take me to so i grabbed it back tightly and carefully. i first thought it were a woman in 20's with medium short brown hair but i am actually not sure of the gender nor ethnicity, sort of neutral look. he/she gave me a compassionate glance and made me feel safe

There was someone sleeping on me snoring. I adored the rhythm of his heartbeat, breathe, life's pulses that I felt on my right chest and neck. I felt that I wanted to protect him with all my heart. My consciousness kicked in and realized I had been dreaming but I could still feel his weight, warmth and pulses, I wished to keep feeling him as long as I could.